Assalamualaikum :-)
(xjwb dosa.. Cea.. Cea.. Cea)
Ok kite lupakan sekejap psl kecelaruan sy. Pomp biase la kan. Bler dah start suka of coz nak lupakan org yg dah melekat kat hati mesti take time kan. I've learnt from the past.. Past is past kan. But utk bersatu semula, mempertahan cinta suci its a big mistake. Suci la sgt.. Hahaaa.. X mungkin der. One word nonsense.. Dah lame sy belajar terima hakikat tu. Skrg proses penyembuhan hati.. Forget the past bak kate omputeh. And find the new one (yg ni sy yg kate).. Hahaaa.. Gataii..
Straight to the point.. Ermmm... Xtau nak start camne. Alkisah begini.. Mase sy tgh duk struggle dgn cinta antara benua (2 days before break-up) tetibe ade sorang mamat ni sms sy. I know him. Sincerely ckp sy xpernah contact dia. Knl pon based on work. More than that nothing. Sbb 1st impression, my feeling kuat mengatakan sy xleh terima cara dia. Ntah ler. Mungkin perkataan sesuai xbrape suka. So dipendekkan cerita, dia act boyfie kwn sy.. Huhu.. (T____T)
Thats the prob sbnrnye. He's my friend's boyfriend. And of coz la sy xselesa nak bersms or sembang dgn boyfriend kwn sndri. Lain la kalo that guy is my friend. Tu lain citer la kan. Ade gak excuse. Sy cuba elak bler dia duk call sy. Sy xangkat. Tambah mase tu sy tgh berperang dgn perasaan sndri. I pny problema de amour pon dah kasi I pening2 tau..
And ade gak dia sms sy. Sy reply. Xkan nak lari lg kot. Kalo x angkat call boleh gak bg alasan xperasan or bz kan. Time msg sy pretending xrase ape2. Tp biase sy yg akan end up the conversation. Bg la alasan ape2 pon.. Tp dia mcm nak continue lg..
But truly ckp, deep in my heart sy rase bersalah kat kwn sy ni. Sy rase sy xjujur. Wlaupon that guy bkn ckp bnda yg bukan2 pon. Dia cuma share the problem in their relationship. But for me, I'm not the suit person kot he wanted to share everything.. Lebih2 lg psl relationship. Sy pnya relationship pon hancuss di tgh jln, ni nak bg nasihat kat org.. :-) Mcm ketam ajar anak jln lurus kan..
Sy rase better dia cari org lain kalo betol la dia nak share mslh dia. Sincere ckp sy xselesa. Xtau camne nak elak, nak lari. Rase mcm sy xde choice..
Sy bkn ape. Kot2 jd bnda yg kita xjgka mase akan dtg. Time tu sape yg akan percaya sy. Sy berani ckp msti xde pny.. Ntah2 sy kena cop pomp gatal. Sy pomp, kwn sy tu pomp. Of coz sy phm perasaan pomp. Kalo dia tau mesti dia akan rase insecure. Mesti dia pkr "eh apasal pakwe aku duk msg2 kwn aku ni". Kan... Kan..
Phm x ape yg cube sy smpaikan? Sy sndri pon pening.. Help me superman..
Buat mase ni xpernah terpikir pon nak cari pengganti. Dan xpernah terlintas nak caras or wuteva it's called org pny boyfriend. Cuma sy nak menikmati the peaceful of life. Tu jer. Nak happy, gelak2 mcm dl. Kalo stress pon psl bnda remeh-temeh. Bkn psl hati & perasaan. Sbb skt tu still skrg rase. I know nobody understand what I'm going through the day. Ckp mmg mudah. Tp yg melaluinya sy. Yg rase stress nak mati tu sy. Mmg org nmpk sy cam ok, mcm dah boleh terima ape yg berlaku, but dlman hnya Allah saje yg tau. Tp I know one thing that Allah knows the best. Ade hikmah di sebalik sume yg terjadi..
Senyum ^_________^ *senyum kambeng*
What should I do??
