Wordless Wednesday

Assalamualaikum..

A months to go.. The day when u went away..

I'll be fine..

...MH370... Al-Fatihah...

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Kpd-Nya kita dtg & kpd-Nya kita kembali..

Allah knows the best..

Forgive & Forget

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Mmg sy janji xde entry emo2 ni. Tp nak buat camne, tuan blog still rase sedih.. :-(

Sy still bljr utk terima semua dugaan ini dr sudut positif. Susah sebenarnya. Salah satu sbb sy mmg sygkan dia. Spt yg sy tulis b4, sy nak bg dia peluang. Sy nmpk kesungguhan awk utk dptkan sy. Bler dah start syg, nak hapus perasaan tu agak susah. Dialah org yg ke2 sy bg peluang to enter my life..

Sy akui sy seorg yg susah to fall in love. Before ade yg nak kenal2 and nak serious in relationship. Tp tu laa. Bab hati dan perasaan bg sy agak complicated. Bler hati kate xnak, mmg sy akan ckp xnak. Sy bkn jns yg akan bg jnji palsu. If rase xleh nak get along baik tros terang. Kurang2 kita xmenipu kan..

Sy skrg pon ade time2 yg sy btol2 rase down. Rase sedih. Rase nak duk sorang2 xnak jumpa sape2. Tp so far sy xshare ape yg sy rase dgn sape2. I can handle it with my own. Xde handle sgt pon. Just remind myself redhalah dgn segala ketentuan. Allah xkan uji sy jika Dia tau sy xmmpu nak hadapi. Sbnrnye bler Allah uji kita, maknanya Allah igt kat kita. Wlaupon kita igt Dia bler kita sedih, rase down. Btol kan.. Sy xtuduh sape2. Sy sndri pon camtu gak. Time happy lgsung xbersyukur.. Ishkk.. Ishkk.. Skrg ape yg sy rase, kpd Dialah tmpt sy mengadu. Dia yg akan phm perasaan sy. Yg phm apa yg sy lalui.. Aku pasrah ya Allah.. :'( Aku nak jd kuat. Dah xmau sedih2..

Esok genap sebulan kteorg break. Sy lgsung xjumpa dia lg. Sy harap condition dia ok. You deserve to get better person.. Not me.

Act ari ni pegi knduri. Ntah knape sy teringat kat awk. Dan sy nak sgt2 terserempak dgn awk kat tmpt knduri tu. Konon2 mcm coincidence. Tp bler sy tnya diri sndri mampukah sy?? Tros cam xde jwpn. Rase mcm sy xkuat.. Half of me nak sgt jumpa awk. But half lg blom bersedia...

Doakan sy boleh lupakan awk. Sy redha kita xde jodoh.. Sy nak mencintai psgn dunia dan akhirat sy wlaupon sy xtau dia di mana.. Sbb dia pelengkap kaki sy ke syurga. Dan sy doakan awk jumpa awk pnya sumone u can share everythings. Sumone that can changed u. I hope so. Knowing u is the best moments in my life. Please redhalah dgn perpisahan ini. Ini yg terbaik utk kita..

I Had Some Hard Time :'(

Yess when it came to my mind. I mean that memories. With him..

Assalamualaikum..

Kadang2 sy kena pujuk hati ckp tabahlah wahai hati. Ujian ini terlalu kecil jika dibandingkan dgn org lain. Allah masih menyayangimu..

Kadang sy teremosi gak. Bler teringat everythings about him.. Paling terkesan the last day I met him. Damn! Sy akui benda camni take time to forget. Dan sy xleh nak paksa diri delete it on the spot. Just let it go by the flow.. Time can changes everything. I hope so..

Susah sbnrnye. Lg sy mau lupa lg kuat igtan sy kt dia. Ya Allah tlg kuatkan aku. Sy dan dia xmgkin akan bersama. Demi Allah mmg xboleh.. Sy redha. Mmg btol sy syg kat dia. Dia pon syg kt sy. Stakat syg jer xckup.. Ade bnda lain yg kita perlukan dlm sesebuah perhubungan. Dan bnda tu xde in our relationship..

Till now sy blom jmpa dia after our last met. About 3 weeks kot. Sy rase ade hikmah ape yg berlaku. And Allah permudahkan segalanya..

Sy nak lupakan semuanya. Smpai bler sy nak idop camni kan. I think i should remind myself he's not mine anymore. Wake up!

Sy tau ade bnda i should keep it myself. Xsemua sy boleh ceritakan di sini..

Skrg sy nak support dr semua org. Alhamdulillah sy dah boleh terima kenyataan. Mmg pahit.. Bg sy mase nak lupakan everything..

Dan satu lg. Jgn paksa sy terima sape2 dlm mase terdekat ni. Biar hati sy pulih dl.. Bkn mksud sy hati & perasaan sy dah tertutup. Just leave me alone. Bg sy ruang utk bangkit kembali. And i want to get my normal life..

This is would be my last entry sy emosi. Hope pasni dah xde.. Insyaallah.. Doakan sy ya..

Jodoh Rahsia Allah

Assalamualaikum

Ok kasi sy menangis puas2 dl. Wlaupon rase berat, by hook or by crook sy kena faced jgak. Im tried my best utk kembali normal cam dl..

Sy tau Allah xkan membebankan umatNya jikalau seseorg itu xmampu menghadapinya. Sy redha dgn segala ketentuanNya..

Tipulah kalo ckp sy xsedih. Of coz bler kite start syg kt sumone, tup2 ape yg kite rancang sume berkecai. Mmg xde harapan. Korang rase sy akan happy? X kann. Hah itu yg sy rase..

1st rase down giler. Xleh nak describe tahap kekecewaan + kesedihan itu. Hnya Allah yg tau. Mase family ckp the truth, ya Allah bsrnye dugaanMu berikan utk aku..

Masuk blk tros sy nangis2 cam org gler. Until now bler sedih itu dtg, sy akan nangis. Thats the best way utk sy better..

Mase sy ckp nak break up *wlaupon kteorg xpernah declare ape2* gler pnya sedih mase tuh. Tp sy kuatkan smgt. Slalu igtkan diri xpe aku ade Allah bersama aku. Aku ade family yg stay by my side. Plz be strong..

Mlm tu mmg sy xmndi. Bygkan kerja seharian. Blk kerja xmndi. Lps smyg maghrib sy tertido. Telekong pon still pkai. Alhamdulillah nikmat sgt dpt tido. Sbb about 2 weeks sy lgsung xckup tido.. Dgn selera mkn pon ke laut. Mmg good combination. Dlm pkol 10 camtu dia call sy. Then sy ckp nak break. Sy xleh troskan this relationship. As i mentioned before i need family's blessing. But i dont get it. So before we go further baheklah kite break up. Yes i admit sy start boleh terima dia dlm idop dia. Dan sy mmg nak bg dia peluang. Put him somewhere in my heart. But now everythings is ruined..

Sy terima dgn hati yg terbuka. And alhamdulillah he's understood my situation. We're break in a good way. I thought laa. Dia pon xde paksa sy ke apa. Terima dgn hati terbuka..

Sy bkn jodoh terbaik utk awk. Mgkin perancangan Allah lg better.. To you, sumone that i loved before, thanks for ur love.. I hope u will find sumone much better than me. I'll always pray for ur happiness.. And please im begging to u tlglah berubah. For the sake of ur future..

End now.. Insyaallah sy kuat. Im big girl now.. Sy ambk mase couple of day to finish these entry. Time mood ok sy taip. When not ok better i stopped it. Im human being too..

Thanks for reading pieces of me...