Jodoh Rahsia Allah

Assalamualaikum

Ok kasi sy menangis puas2 dl. Wlaupon rase berat, by hook or by crook sy kena faced jgak. Im tried my best utk kembali normal cam dl..

Sy tau Allah xkan membebankan umatNya jikalau seseorg itu xmampu menghadapinya. Sy redha dgn segala ketentuanNya..

Tipulah kalo ckp sy xsedih. Of coz bler kite start syg kt sumone, tup2 ape yg kite rancang sume berkecai. Mmg xde harapan. Korang rase sy akan happy? X kann. Hah itu yg sy rase..

1st rase down giler. Xleh nak describe tahap kekecewaan + kesedihan itu. Hnya Allah yg tau. Mase family ckp the truth, ya Allah bsrnye dugaanMu berikan utk aku..

Masuk blk tros sy nangis2 cam org gler. Until now bler sedih itu dtg, sy akan nangis. Thats the best way utk sy better..

Mase sy ckp nak break up *wlaupon kteorg xpernah declare ape2* gler pnya sedih mase tuh. Tp sy kuatkan smgt. Slalu igtkan diri xpe aku ade Allah bersama aku. Aku ade family yg stay by my side. Plz be strong..

Mlm tu mmg sy xmndi. Bygkan kerja seharian. Blk kerja xmndi. Lps smyg maghrib sy tertido. Telekong pon still pkai. Alhamdulillah nikmat sgt dpt tido. Sbb about 2 weeks sy lgsung xckup tido.. Dgn selera mkn pon ke laut. Mmg good combination. Dlm pkol 10 camtu dia call sy. Then sy ckp nak break. Sy xleh troskan this relationship. As i mentioned before i need family's blessing. But i dont get it. So before we go further baheklah kite break up. Yes i admit sy start boleh terima dia dlm idop dia. Dan sy mmg nak bg dia peluang. Put him somewhere in my heart. But now everythings is ruined..

Sy terima dgn hati yg terbuka. And alhamdulillah he's understood my situation. We're break in a good way. I thought laa. Dia pon xde paksa sy ke apa. Terima dgn hati terbuka..

Sy bkn jodoh terbaik utk awk. Mgkin perancangan Allah lg better.. To you, sumone that i loved before, thanks for ur love.. I hope u will find sumone much better than me. I'll always pray for ur happiness.. And please im begging to u tlglah berubah. For the sake of ur future..

End now.. Insyaallah sy kuat. Im big girl now.. Sy ambk mase couple of day to finish these entry. Time mood ok sy taip. When not ok better i stopped it. Im human being too..

Thanks for reading pieces of me...